Hi, I'm Ethan. I'd describe myself as a lot of things, a comic book nerd, college freshman, dog lover, and I just went through second puberty. How do I identify now? I don't know. I feel like the same person I always was, and that person was a guy. But it's hard to call yourself a guy when you've got a body like mine. But i dont feel like a woman either, unless this is what being a woman feels like. Honestly I've been avoiding thinking to deeply into it, and I've just been trying to cope with this massive change with a positive attitude.
I'm back at my apartment after three weeks at my parents house undergoing the end of my changes. I'm definitely still getting used to a lot. I had no idea I'd be this curvy, and I quickly found I could no longer walk properly without swaying my hips. My folks told me it looks the same but I feel like Jessica Rabbit strutting around. Plus I can feel my butt bounce with each step. Of course, I live with constant bouncing from several parts of my body now and it's starting to become just a part of life. My new life.
On top of that, I'm about to see my roommates for the first time since my fonal changes. Last time they saw me I was a bit androgyneous, but nothing like I am now. I just don't want them to treat me differently or think I've gone "full girl".
But could I blame them if they did? Even if they get that I didnt choose these curves or my squeaky voice, which is so annoying to me, look at what I'm wearing! My... Breasts are spilling out and my shirt is stretched to its limits, and this skirt is practically painted on! But this was all I had to wear today. My mom had bought me a new wardrobe (and rudely donated all of my old clothes) before my changes were over. My the time my curves had finished filling out, this was all that was viable. I probably wouldnt even be wearing a bra if this tshirt wasnt practically see through. And, I'm not wearing a thong but you wouldnt know it by the way they ride up my massive rear. God, sometimes I really do feel like a woman.
My roommates, Joey and Tenner eventually arived amd as soon as I heard the door open I knew it was the moment of truth. I straightened my skirt and fixed my hair and watched them come through the door, confusion marking their faced.
"Hey guys..." I said shyly. It took them a few minutes but eventually they realized it was me, Ethan. Unsurprisingly, they were astounded by how I looked now, and it was definitely awkward at first. But it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. I think my good attitude helped, because after an hour we were all shooting the shit like we always did. But that was after a lot of awkward questions " have you felt your own boobs?" "What's having a vag like?" I answered their questions but didnt hide my annoyance. I finally had to set them straight.
"Guys I know this is really weird for everyone, and I get the curiosity. But can we PLEASE not talk about the fact that..." I hesitated... "That I'm a girl now?"
They were understanding and immediately avoided the subject. There was some tension at first, but it soon faded. It was actually relieving that things could be normal again, until Tenner suggested we go to the movies to see the new Star Wars. My mood shifted when I realized I couldnt.
"Why not dude? Girl brain more into rom coms now? Tenner asked, not realizing how unfunny his joke was. I nearly hit him right there, but I doubt i would have been able to hurt him anyway with my thing arms and tiny hands. Instead I took a breath and tried ti be patient. I hesitated because the reason I couldnt was embarrasing.
I said, feeling more self concious of it than I ever had.
"Ha, yeah, I've noticed. And?"
I bit my tongue. "And the seats at the theater are quite small..." I said.
"Oh, right. Sorry man I didnt think about that."
"Its alright." I said. But inside i felt thrown off. It reminded me of yet another thing second puberty had taken away from me, and that my life would never be the same again. Ive never had to watch my weight before, but i think my first order of business as a woman may be to work off this booty.